The difficulty of relaxation

Posted byLessonsLearned. WisdomEarned.Posted inPast Life Lessons

At the end of 2014, I decided to spend more time enjoying life and less stressing about it. So far, I have succeeded in this endeavor; however, it has not come so easily. When stress seems to consume my life, I can generally reassure myself that everything will be ok and, more importantly, God has already worked it out. After I have reassured myself, I have a period of peace and tranquility that comes.  After this period of peace calms me down, I find myself guilty that I am not stressed and worried about life. Then, I am stressed because I am not stressed. I know that this may sound confusing and somewhat insane, but this is what I generally feel constantly. It is hard to counteract this feeling, so I end up stressing over things I shouldn’t be stressed over. I have this irrational fear that if I am not stressed, I won’t be successful and accomplish all the things that need to be done. It has been tough to convince myself that this fear is irrational. It scares me that I stress myself out, not because of my physical but spiritual health.

I always say that I will trust God through the mountains and valleys and through the victories and triumphs. However, when I begin to worry and stress, it seems that it becomes less about God’s plans and more about my own. If I truly trust in God, it means knowing he has a plan for me and will supply all my needs. When I am stressed, I am not trusting God and knowing that he will fight my battles. When I try to fix the situation, I do not trust God; I rely on my understanding. I know that God is a way maker (he has made ways for me before), but sometimes it seems that it is not sufficient. For someone who always has to be in control over their life, it is hard for me to “let go and let God.” It seems that it takes more work for me to trust that God will fix the issue than it would take to fix it myself. I have been trying to take steps to let God take control over my life, but it is difficult.

Until Next time:

Let God’s light shine within you and through you!

Published by LessonsLearned. WisdomEarned.

I am who I say I am. The previous statement is a simple declaration of the power I have from being set free from the confines of who people wanted me to be. Today we are so consumed with how we want those around us to perceive our existence that we are not keenly aware of who we are and the value of our existence, our contributions, and our power. It is my life’s mission to allow those around me to come into their full existence and to make them understand that they matter. Through this site, I hope something touches you and makes you understand that you matter. Once you believe that you matter share your testimony so those around you will understand that they matter. Let’s continue to share until we are all liberated.

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