Six months ago, I found myself in a familiar position. As I do, I prayed for God to fix a situation I found myself in. However, I grew very tired of asking God to fix something time and time again. After that final prayer, I decided to ask God for something different. I began to pray that God would change my heart, mind, body, and soul and asked him to take away everything and everyone who was not right with that plan. I prayed that hat he would put work in me and take me out of my comfort zone so that I could experience life differently. He did that but also took me through some stuff that made me regret what I prayed for.
God did exactly what I asked. However, I did not realize that he would take me through mountains and valleys to get there. If I simply prayed for it, it would come to pass, and that would be the end. This is true, but there was also a process that I had to go through to receive blessings from God. In particular, I had to lose some people. I lost some people who I thought were my friends along the way. At the beginning of this process, I did not understand why people I considered friends stopped talking to me when I did nothing to them. I realized that those friendships were not in God’s plan during this process. God did not want me to bring them on the journey. I remember that the old me would have pestered them until I figured out what I did to them for them to stop talking to me. However, the new me simply prays for them and speaks to them, even when they don’t acknowledge me. I understood that God was doing exactly what I prayed for, removing the people who were not correct and in line with his plan.
During this process, I faced rejection. I am an individual who does not handle rejection well. While I was struggling, it seemed that rejection was all around. Every time I tried to do something or apply for something, I was rejected. This happened at a time when I saw people around me who were qualified and accepted. This hurt, but I did not give up. I started to understand that the things I wanted were not meant for me. So I decided I would be thankful for the rejection because it opened up other doors I could not see then. I know this will prepare me for the doors God is preparing to open. At the time, it stung and stung terribly, but now I know there was a plan in place.
The biggest struggle I dealt with was –loneliness. As a stated, I lost friends along the way, but the friends and family that I had, they had their own life to live. Whenever I needed someone to do something with or needed some words of encouragement, my friends and family were busy doing their own thing. They did not have time to listen to my problems. This was hard, not having someone to talk to amid chaos. However, I did not give up. I learned how to do things on my own, and by doing this, I met some incredible people that I probably wouldn’t have met otherwise. I also began to talk to God more and strengthen my relationship with him. It forced me out of my comfort zone, which I prayed for.
Though I learned some valuable lessons, specifically how to effectively use the power of prayer. I was not entirely ready for the process God would take me through to get there. Then I thought about who was ready? There are very few people that I know who are ready for God to make them exercise spiritually. God took me through valleys, hills, and hurdles to get what I prayed for. However, it made me spiritually stronger and prepared for the blessings ahead. It also helped me understand agape love. I cannot wait to see how he works and moves in my life.
Until next time:
Let God’s light shine within you and through you!
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